I've been fighting some demons for a while. Nothing major major. It's just the emptiness that comes from lack of purpose. The struggle to find fulfillment and joy. The mental frustration and exhaustion. It's a daily struggle that grows like a snowball rolling down hill headed for hell (nod to the great Merle Haggard).
But if I've learned anything, it's that my struggles are my own.
Mistakes, failures, regrets, dreams, disillusionment, misconceptions, bad ideas, good ideas, successes. All mine. They're all part of the journey. They're all part of the struggle. Keep your eye on the prize.
This life is mine and mine alone.
Here's one from five years ago.
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JB
MINE - Mistakes. Lord knows I made a lot of 'em. Dues? yeah, paid mine. Time? yeah, I may have bought some. The error of my ways, They are my own. But the arrow of mine points forward. The only way I've ever known. How long can one wander? How long can a person truly be lost? How long can a person wonder? How long can one pay such a cost? Mistakes. Yeah, I've done some hurtin. And all these things, they haunt me. My burden is mine, of that I am certain. Haunted. Maybe I am, but maybe not. But I am undaunted, that I know. My mistakes are all that I've got. Regrets. No, none of which I'm aware. These bets I've lost along the way, placed when the odds were fair. Fears. None; they find life in not knowing. I need to take on those challenges. And find truth in the growing. Mistakes. These belong to only me. I keep them with me always. Kept in a place no one will ever see. Illusions. Empty dreams in my eyes. The thinly veiled scars, and the past I wear like a disguise. Smiles. That is the real me. And all the laughter through my tears; not a thing can conceal me. Mistakes. Today, I'm letting you go. You're no longer my heart's anchor. Today, I'm letting you know. Goodbye. To the darkness of my past, this is the end to all the battles. Today, this was the last. - JB, 11JUL2K19
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This could be the lyrics to a song. You just need a chorus (is that the right word? A « refrain » in French)!
I feel this here, and we all deal with these feelings when it comes to our life journey.
I like the resolution of this as we choose to not let our mistakes and regrets shackle us and we move forward.